When Exhaustion and Anxiety Meets Two Parrots

An absolutely grueling test I say! The morning started off with an amazing sunrise. A splashed sky filled with firey orange and candy-apple fused cirrus clouds. Granted I was a bit cloudy from the sleep deprived state I found myself in. Stillness! Morning is perfectly planned that way. A short train ride filled with sleepy cars. Saturday morning at 7:30 tends to be like that in the city. Each rider tells a different story of last nights events. Open mouths and bobbing heads saturate the Q. I am in the zone, almost trance-like for what I'm about to undertake. The faces that enter the lecture hall are filled with an anxiety that cannot be measured. I feel the uneasiness because I've been there before. All sorts of anxious behaviors commence. Shaking legs, incessant talking, and confessions of the many study sessions that lead to this moment. I feel as though at this point what will be, will be. Could I have prepared more? Absolutely! Your heart truly has to be in this because three insane years will begin the moment you, sign on the dotted line. Still exploring avenues you might say. Serious measures have been taken to try and sift through the madness, the confusion, and the hype.

It actually feels quite invigorating having released myself of this burden. It was looming in the background for a while now! Probably the highlight of heading for this day was when I saw two green parrots squawking in the trees along the campus. I then looked up to my right and saw this vast nest that was around the size of a kiddie pool. The parrots controlled the tempo of the air, singing their songs and waking up their neighbors I remember thinking, is there a couple of bald eagles up there? Obviously, there is a parrot population there. I realize that I sound absolutely crazy but, I mentioned it to Erin and she said that it was on the news a while back, that there was a rather random faction of parrots living in Bk. I definitely had to look a couple of times to make sure that I wasn't still asleep and almost dreaming this morning. If they weren't your typical parrot, realizing of course that i'm no Orinthologist, they were certainly in the green parrot family, any way you decide to argue and see this through. That was the best start to a day filled with apprehension. The day ended with me walking away with more confidence than I anticipated having, given the circumstances. Either way, I got a little taste of the amazon in the booming metropolis.

Now, with this day's conclusion, the feeling that resonates is one of anxiety. Seems like we've come full circle. Given the magnitude of this test, for a prospective student, it's a bit similar to awaiting results of one's blood work. Something that was worrying you, turns into a test, and ends with an unending period of stress, until those results are understood. Not to compare this predicament to one's panic about blood work results, but, I think, either way, this terror comes from the same place. It is a thread from the same emotion.