The Future with No Surrender

Today, things changed. Not necessarily sure because there is no empirical evidence of said change. However, I met with an extraordinary Jesuit today. He was very helpful and I am convinced that our conversation this afternoon will bear fruit. He framed the programs of study for the M.A candidate and Ph D. candidate in Medieval studies. With the luck of a good test score and fulfillment of their admissions criteria, yours truly, will be starting an M.A in Medieval Studies. The tricky part will be the mastery of the GRE's to ensure full funding. It was mentioned that there is not as much emphasis on the math section as there is, the verbal/vocabulary section. That said, the cards turn toward the polar opposite when considering Presidential scholarships at the Ph D. level, fullbright scholarships, and fellowships. There will be excrutiating moments when dealing with the hurdles of getting both feet in the doorway of the Graduate Center. GRE's! I have to provide myself with overwhelming conviction that I can kick a standardized test in the ass! Mind frame is everything. Always has been, always will be.

I just finished gleaning through the information in which this fine Jesuit provided me with. I felt worried that if a decision was made in haste, that I would not perform up to the level that I truly feel I am capable of. Deadlines are approaching. There may be a way to fill these voids even though deadlines have approached, however, getting professor recommendations on such short notice will be difficult. I must now work on my letter of intent so that it is submitted without blemishes. I have to set the bar high because many competing students, probably have a leg up on me, since they've made up their minds to enter into graduate work months ago! That's quite alright. I was unsure until this meeting and plenty of reading on this program. There is an enormous amount of scholars from diverse backgrounds. I am so intrigued by this notion. Scholars from around the world: Cambridge, University of Toronto, Notre Dame, etc..... So moving forward, it is go time. Idle moments shall cease. Productivity shall increase, and I will be triumphant in making my mark in this crazy world!

James